So Good by Snow Jenika

Author:Snow, Jenika
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Jenika Snow
Published: 2019-04-29T04:00:00+00:00

I put the clean set of pajamas on the counter and shut the bathroom door, staring at myself in the mirror. My body felt ultrasensitive, the memory of the kiss I’d shared with Matthew still so fresh in my mind, on my lips. My mouth tingled, my body reacted. All it took was that memory to ignite me.

I turned on the shower and waited for it to heat up, then got in, hoping the hot water might stave off some of this arousal burning within me.

But the longer I stayed under the spray, the more my desire for him grew. And what a fucking shame that was, seeing as I wouldn’t ever be with him. He’d made that clear, told me we couldn’t be together. And I understood him, but I hated it. It felt like someone had ripped my heart from me.

I shut off the water and stood there a moment, just letting the droplets slide down my body, the chill settle over my skin. Finally, I stepped out, dried off, and dressed, the clothing rubbing along my ultrasensitive skin, heightening my lust even further.

How I wished I could be with Matthew, that I could at least talk to someone about how I felt. But telling anyone my feelings would be met with condemnation, disgust, judgment. No, I couldn’t even tell Georgia how I felt. I couldn’t admit it to anyone.

I stared at myself in the mirror, the glass foggy, my reflection distorted. I lifted my hand to clear off the fog. I stared at myself for a second, feeling defeated, alone, and like a part of myself was missing.

I opened the bathroom door, the built-up steam billowing out in this cloud in front of me.

I could hear sounds from downstairs. I knew Matthew was just right below. Maybe if I went down there and demanded he stop hiding his feelings, he’d be with me. Or maybe I’d make a bigger fool of myself. Maybe I’d make things worse. And then I saw the light downstairs go off, heard him coming closer to the stairs. My heart started racing and I wanted to go to my room, to rush away, escape.

I was nervous, scared to see him. Things had gotten so weird since the kiss, since he’d told me how he felt, and I to him. It was like he’d shut me out. It was when I heard the creak of the stairs and knew Matthew was coming up, that I found myself finally going to my room. But once I was there, I didn’t shut the door. I left it cracked, the darkness from the lack of light, the humidity and scent of the body wash I’d used filling the air.

His room was right beside mine. He’d have to walk past my door to get to it, so when he was only a few feet away, I took a step back and held my breath. The door was still cracked, a small sliver of muted blue light from the window coming through.

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